Nifsu syabaan..

just wanna tell you guys today is Nifsu syaaban..

like usual, i woke up late, hmmm, my dad angry, hmmmm, then go to kenduri.. to celebrate nifsu syaban.. waa. Ramadhan is very closed.. i like ramadhan. I miss Ramadhan so much..

maybe some of you dont knw what is nifsu syaaban?

my dad said nifsu syaaban is we  open new book... make dua so our bad habit in the past will be changed to be good in the new book... and read yaasin with niat..., something like that.. hihihi

for the instance ( formal ), in Islam, every sin we did, malaikat(fairy/angel ) will write it n the book.. and every kindness we did also will be write on the book. if i'm not mistaken Roqib and atit.hmmm, i'm not remember it very well.. huhu.. 

aiyoo, i'm feeling so disappointment with myself!

i forgot  much about Islam story.. also history.. LOL. what happened to me??

and all best story about islam.... its been 4 years ago i learn this.. hmm

I hope one day, i will leave my world.. and go one place that no one know who am i...

and i want learn more About islam..and closed with Allah..and find someone who can guide me..   no phone, no lappy, no MP3, no friends.. no money.. NO INTERNET!

I only have Al-quran and my Iman.. And Allah is beside me..... BUT, how about my dress?? T_T..i will bring it also!.. hmmmmm.. its will happen one day.. i'm wait for that day.. that time i will leave my accountant carrier to Looking for Allah.. and i wanna become Rabi' Atul Adawiyyah the woman who are very strong.. hmmmm.. 

i wonder, hows rabi'atul adawiyyah dress look like? how she wore her hijab? which shawl? what color? hmmmm.... and hows her dress look like? hmmmm.. all of that not important... as long you are sincere to Allah, you will look very beautiful all the time... but i cant leave my dress T_T 

 its my dream since i'm at college 3 years ago.. hmmm, when this can be true??.. i love to adventure and ready for the challenges!  

i'm so busy with my day.. INTERNET, my friends, my study, my family, etc..