Ego can kill the talent

Hmmm..

yesterday i was so sad.. but now i feel nothing..

i just thankful to Allah..

because who am I today..

even i have pimple ..

T_T..

Today i wanna share about my dream ..

weird dream again! hihi

my dad move me to new school..

STPM.. its like A level..

like usual i meet new friend there..

but in that dream i'm arrogant.. 

i dont like friend with them.. huuu

then, suddenly my best friend from matric, mimi is come and meet me in class... she didnt enter to my class but give me signal  from outside my class  to get out now  ..

so,  i silently  run away from that class through  back door. so my teacher didnt noticed it ...

i'm asking her 'whats matter? why did u come here?'.. she said with sad face ' my dad want me stop from study .. but i was made a loan. its 30 thousand ringgit.. what i'm suppose to do?'.. i was shocked heard that  then ask her ' why you dad want you stop?' spontaneously she answer me 'because i'm not study well. :('..

so, i bring her to one place so we could chat more.. she said she was in love with someone and that person fool her.. after we are talked alot, then my ex roommates is come ..

she treat us some lunch.. and listening her story study abroad..

suddenly we have 4 people. the other one is my current best friend in uniKL..

what the weird dream.. -,-'

at the last i'm fever.. and go to the private clinic.. 

what make me shocked is the bill is 1 thousand more ringgit....

only fever and the bill is RM1000? come on..

i just pay it using my credit card.. even in real i dont have credit card.. all is debit card.. 

then i wake up from sleep.. 

look at the clock, its 4.30pm.. damn! zohor time!..

i rushing go to the toilet and take wuduk..

after i pray i was think about my dream..

why they are appear in my dream?  because we are never contact.. even we are friend  on facebook.... 

'Ego can kill the talent'

without i'm noticed i'm was killed my talent..

i'm  so Ego..

that why i always lost someone that i love..

my friends... i cant blame them because they are never hurt me etc.. 

same with my family, i never greeting them as well ..

i'm never appreciate people around me 

I need to blame my self because i'm so Ego..

and its was kill my talent.. that why UiTM dismiss me from there..

That why my scholarship was taken back..

its my Ego..

i'm so Ego with Allah,

i'm so Ego with my family,

i'm so Ego with my friends,

I'm so Ego with my boyfriend

i'm so ego with everyone.. in the end they are leave me alone... 

i need to start it back..  star  from ABC ..new life, new friend, new place, but my family is still same. hmm

no matter what happend, who we are, what was the mistake we did, family never leave you for a long.. they are ready to accpt, and  to forgive.. that is the power of family

I always Think about Study, my future. because i wanna become like my idola..

bill gate, albert einstain, Leonardo  da vinci., Garry kasparov, .Ibnu khaldun, Ibnu sina, Al khawarizmi ,  they are so clever.. even some of them  are jewish but i'm so impress toward them. they create something new..

I'm also impress about Nabi Muhammad, Nabi Ibrahim, Nabi sulamain, Rabi'atul adawiyyah, Hasan Al-bashri.. because i like to read their story so i could be like them one day..InsyaAllah.. I want my last moment   of my life  i could be like Rabi atul adawiyyah.. That why my dad give me that name. he want me become like her.. Ameen.. 

Principe of my life is my pride first, then second one is opportunity in future, third one is my safety, and the last one is saving and cut cost ;) 

But for Love  is other story.. hehe

because i knw my self.. if i truly love that person, my Principe is second one.. hehe

but i still put my dad pride as the first whenever i'm in love or etc.. 

So lucky my dad has daughter like me. hmm..

because i will never betray him!

i cant wait my turn to marry.. all my daughter will be like me..

i want become the best mother of them!..yeay!

people said when the girl in love , their IQ will decrease .. its me.. ! :D