I Miss Someone

last night i'm looking the picture with my family when i was in penang last month..

coincidently i open my old picture...

I'm so specchless.. its was past.. 

and now he is married.. 

the worst feeling because i miss him at this moment...

and the guy with me right now make me feel worst when he talked to me about his ex...

so stupid.. 

its remind my about him....

I feel confuse right now...

please god, help me to forget all about him...

i want a strength so i could forget all about  him immediately..

even i was forget 70% about him, but there still 30% left. and its still strong

i dont mind if i'm forever alone.. yah, i know i'm forever alone right now..

jom layan lagu ni.....

i dont wanna miss a things by aerosmith

LOVE DARE: What happened to me?

Recently i have probelm..
My heart have a bad probelm..
He is Working from morning 8am until 6pm..
and sometimes he is late back home..
The problem is i miss him badly..huhu
When the time is 6pm, i will take my phone and waiting him send me message on whatsApp.. ohhh god.. what happened to me.. <--- please help me how to prevent this one..
yesterday i wait for him from 6pm until 9pm.. i feel like waiting for 3 years.. hoho.. time move very slowly..

last week i gave him sayang song.... because its show my feeling toward him..
i went to utara because i wanna see him.. but the distance do not allowed it..
i insist my parents to bring me along, because i never go there.. But the mainly reason i wanna see him...

I cant concentrate on my study.. I only think about him all the time...
My Mom catch me ,, but she don't know who are him. She thought The guy who my scandal in high school...
my Mom said 'kalau dah suka sangat suh la dia datang merisik' WOW, my mom give me green light..
Then my dad said ' eh, adik ni, anak kita masih belajar.. suhla habiskan study die dulu, then kahwin' The they are open my dark story about UiTM.. they said 'bagi hilang dulu trauma mama and papa. habiskan study dulu' hmmm.
If he can wait for me for the two years, the he is mine for the next 40 years..
if not, then, he is not mine..
:'(...
He is my third love story... i hope this is the last one.... i spend alot my time to msg him..
huhuhu.. because before i never do this to my ex...
i dont like reply message, but i dont know why i like message with him,, full stop.. bye

i'm in love  <3<3<3

My Planning

this is story related with my LOVE DARE..

i have no idea about this

its been 2 month i knw him.. LOLz..

we are make plan for future.. and i just go on with his plan..

because i dont mind what happened in my future..

i just want to be housewife, 

so i could be a good wife and good mother to my son and daughter...

I take care The dishes, laundry, and cook for my husband everyday..

i will make sure my sons and daughters have a good education because i want send them pursuing their  study at oversea.. 

either Harvard university, Stanford university, and Cambridge and Oxford .. engineering i will send them to japan or German, accounting at Australia, Medical at Mesir.. i dont  mind where is they study.. as long they will be knowledgeable person in future.. and be a good person to protect Islam

Long time ago my dream so high.. i want to join MIA so i could have CA certificate and work at oversea.. but now, when i think of, if i'm busy  look for money and work from morning untill night.. How about my daughter and Son? and how about my husband?.. world is temporary.. 

i dont want my kids to be like me.... seriously,, my mom busy ... and my dad busy... i feel really like forever alone all the time.. and i bit emotional person... sometimes i cant control my emotional.. hmmm.. that why i always lost someone that i loved..

and i 'm indiscipline.. i'm so weak,,,

always fight with my mom because my mom always accuse me .. make decision without knowing who am i..

sometimes when peole  think they are so clever, their education so high and always right all  the time, they will never listen to other people... i wont to be like  that..

one day if i have daughter and son, i will listen them... 

if they like something i will support them..  not condemn and give negative  comment

i wont never let them feel worst toward their effort...

i hate when my mom said i'm beggar...

i hate when my mom wont to see me the moment i failed in my life.. and i need someone give me strength that time.. that why  i make crazy things that time..

i hate when my mom never proud of me and always look down on  what i was achive in my collage  and school...

she is never know anything  about my life, but always give me wrong advice to me..

i hate when my mom never understand me, and compare me with her long time ago...

my mom never see me growing up... she is busy with her student...

mom, now, u will never know who is your daughter is...  u just see me as materialistic who like shopping, arrogant, too much social,... 

mom, u are never stand at my side.. u put so much burden on me..and u just lost a daughter who love u along time ago.... she was died... 

Mr.right

yesterday i was solat istikarah... untuk memohon petunjuk..i really feel so down right now... and the answer for istikarah is i found that my friend is block me from whatssup... i dont know why... then i was sleep. i was dream my old friend when i was in matric... she look at me.. and the guy appear in my dream is my ex boyfriend.. but he is arabic.. ohhh god. please..i hope not him to be my mr.right... i dont like that kind of people to be my husband... i'm not think i could follow him... how about my love dare? i feeling so empty abt him right now....

no one.. but there are someone with me

today i feel so upset.. its not because my new love dare..that is because i have no friend.. i'm so arrogant... i just noticed recently...
i'm not save my classmate number... Lol.. when i need their help, i'm start searching their number..i'm deserve it..  :'(
this is consequence when we are arrogant, selfish, not appriciate people around u :')
ya Allah.. i dont have friend.. i want you be my friend..  company me all the me.. make me feel ok whn i'm alone

nonsense story

The awkward moment when we are confess our madness to wrong person, and that person who actually like to is turn to hate u..

well, its happend to me... and its damn hurt

i have no friend (right now)

forever alone..

i choose this way

no friends is better because sometimes they are annoyed me...

next week is my new semester..

i'm not ready to meet them..

mistake is like a heavy stone..

its burden to bring along ..

i need to face them next week..

hahaha.. 

how come..

i need to hide my face on my pocket. nobody see me..

LOL

i'm not fear.. just i bit difficult to face with them..

i dont know why, the feeling is so awkward 

ohh, ya, today i meet one guy..

i knw him last year... when i'm asked  him about how to hack wifi..

then today he teach me  something that i want to knw ..

its about phising..

very thanks to him.. i wanna treat him .. but so far.. haha

who i want to phising?

when i knw how to phishing, i feel empty...

i want to hack my ex bf.. but, now. i let it be...i have no feeling to phising him..

we are end..

so, nothing ganna change destiny if i'm hack him..

when i open my picture in semester 1, they are lot memory with her.. well,i want to delete all.. 

so i could pretend nothing happnd in semester 1. but i cant.. lets see what happnd next weekk.. 

good night ^^

Love Dare L.O.V.E D.A.R.E

Did any one here know what means by love dare?

i bet no one know except me and him...

we are taking high risk in finding the Right Person..

are u dare to do that?

u dont even  knw who are him, and talking about marry.. hoho XD

actually i have a bit fear.. just in chase he is not my right person... 

the game started when i'm came online on yahoo messenger to chat with my sister..

and he said 'hi' on me..

then i'm thinking did we have chat before? because its been long time i'm not involve in yahoo chat.. the last time i'm chat in yahoo room 2011.. so i bet he is someone that  i used to chat before.. frankly i forgot all my friends that i knw in yahoo chat room.. i just open to pass my time to know new person and have some networking friends...

Then Mr.single meet with Miss single..

guess what happnd next?

we changed number phone..

and rarely message each other

BUT

i dont know why until now i dont have feeling toward him..

and now he is my BF....
but sometimes i like him, and something he will become annoying.. Sabar je la >.<

fullstop. bye