My Planning

this is story related with my LOVE DARE..

i have no idea about this

its been 2 month i knw him.. LOLz..

we are make plan for future.. and i just go on with his plan..

because i dont mind what happened in my future..

i just want to be housewife, 

so i could be a good wife and good mother to my son and daughter...

I take care The dishes, laundry, and cook for my husband everyday..

i will make sure my sons and daughters have a good education because i want send them pursuing their  study at oversea.. 

either Harvard university, Stanford university, and Cambridge and Oxford .. engineering i will send them to japan or German, accounting at Australia, Medical at Mesir.. i dont  mind where is they study.. as long they will be knowledgeable person in future.. and be a good person to protect Islam

Long time ago my dream so high.. i want to join MIA so i could have CA certificate and work at oversea.. but now, when i think of, if i'm busy  look for money and work from morning untill night.. How about my daughter and Son? and how about my husband?.. world is temporary.. 

i dont want my kids to be like me.... seriously,, my mom busy ... and my dad busy... i feel really like forever alone all the time.. and i bit emotional person... sometimes i cant control my emotional.. hmmm.. that why i always lost someone that i loved..

and i 'm indiscipline.. i'm so weak,,,

always fight with my mom because my mom always accuse me .. make decision without knowing who am i..

sometimes when peole  think they are so clever, their education so high and always right all  the time, they will never listen to other people... i wont to be like  that..

one day if i have daughter and son, i will listen them... 

if they like something i will support them..  not condemn and give negative  comment

i wont never let them feel worst toward their effort...

i hate when my mom said i'm beggar...

i hate when my mom wont to see me the moment i failed in my life.. and i need someone give me strength that time.. that why  i make crazy things that time..

i hate when my mom never proud of me and always look down on  what i was achive in my collage  and school...

she is never know anything  about my life, but always give me wrong advice to me..

i hate when my mom never understand me, and compare me with her long time ago...

my mom never see me growing up... she is busy with her student...

mom, now, u will never know who is your daughter is...  u just see me as materialistic who like shopping, arrogant, too much social,... 

mom, u are never stand at my side.. u put so much burden on me..and u just lost a daughter who love u along time ago.... she was died...