damn on u

Yesterday i'm back home..  damn tired yesterday..
the stupid things i did yesterday is i updated status on facebook..hmm
about my forever alone story.. i dont knw what the hell i'm doing that time...
because its my first time shopping alone..
i planned to find purple dress, season jeans, and play bowling after that go to the karaoke toilet ..
but, i feel like the real forever alone when i'm shopping alone..i have no mood.. if i go to play bowling alone, and pay alone, then play alone,, its make me feel so alone,, then i want go to karaoke toilet but i feel awkward  because i'm alone.. so  sad
then i go to mcD because thirsty... and eat alone, what the funny moment.. i'm feeling so pity toward myself..
because That time my best friend going to church..
but, gladly, she call me that her activity is end early, and able to company me shopping and karaoke ...
damn! When i think back, .. hmmm
why i do that? i made a sin toward myself.. sheet of paper!!
so stupid.. and the person who like that status is the one who dump me.. damn!

moral value for yesterday: dont make promise when you are happy, and dont make decision when you are angry...

I dont mind if i got dumped.. no sense..
Because obviously they are not made for me..
why i need to cry for that?
accept, forget and survive..

honestly, i'm feeling so sad because the feeling of betrayed is still in my mind..
i hate you world! i hate my world right now..