feeling so sad right now (emotional version)

Like usual, when break up we will feel so sad..

I wanna karaoke  right now!!

its always happening to me. when i started like to that boy, they will dump me..

so cruel... and that is shit true..

and i wondering why boy always ask something like that.. that i will never give. why huh?

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

i knw i'm talking alone like shit.. go to hell!!

i have no mood 2day

k bye

My Happy Moment

Today i feel damn boring.. suppose i'm not back home..

my dad not feeling well, so he cant bring us travel this weekend.. so i'm stuck at my home with my little brother and sister.. arghhhhh!

just now, i open my facebook.. accidently, i opened my best friend's facebook profile.. she is my best friend when i was in matriculation . i call her jaa..
shes was talk about me on her profile  about her..,
the worst feeling when i noticed it today...

we are very closed when we are in matriculation.
and my day is very happy with her and my other friend..
we are become closed friend because of fate..
wherever my destiny  i will meet her.. cafe, mirror, come late to class, koperasi, etc, i will meet her.... she is alone, and i'm alone.. so, we are decide to eat together, go anywhere tgether, etc..
because i have best friend that time, she is mimi, but our class not same..  some conflict happend  because of that. huhu
\My friends said i'm bit arrogant .. i dnt why people like to judge me i'm arrogant..
i just dont like interrupt people life... because  not interesting.. unless they tell me about their  life, i will be good listener even i cant help them to solve... huhu

i really miss the moment in KMPK... its just like a dream...
all picture i was lost it.. so, i dont how long i will memorizing all those memory..
hahaha, i remember when jaa very angry on me because my result got higher than her because we are study together....
she wont to talk to me, even my expensive message she wont reply.then i write down sorry words many times on a4 paper.. then take a picture and do my poker face too, and sent her MMS... LOL, i  do stupid expression just for her. LOL.. its kinda funny..
actually she is clever than me.. i just wins in mathematics.. that all..
calculation is  my passion.. mathematics and accounting is the subject i like most...
i enjoy  studying both subject...
but for the other subject, go to hell, i hate uuuu!

k bye,

ooo ya, actually i wondering why my king not message me for today, i was waiting  since yesterday..  no respond  froom him.. hmm
positive thinking: ooo mayb  he is busy, or still sleeping.. or, something happnd?
negative thinking : damn! he is forgot me.. oke, fine!

Feeling not comfortable

Today i'm so worry about my eyes.. its feel like so tired even i  keep my eyes rest for the  many hours..
i wanna tell my dad but i worried he will angry on me because he not allow me wearing contact lens, but i did.. its damn not comfortable.. ohh god, plzzz , what i'm suppose to do?
i just need your help. huhuhuhu

Today i'm back home..ooo ya.. haha
yesterday i feel  very worst toward my new bf
in my mind that time i was losing him... and he was dump me.. so freak..
 so, i just ignore all his message....on morning , my friend ask me 'aik? where is you phone?'
i leave my phone on my desk ... when i look my phone , i saw his msg .. well, i read all.. again he give me msg like i'm the one who made mistake.. i reply and ask the question.. after that, we are oke like nothing happend between us.. erk, no comment..
when i'm dinner with my family, he sent me msg, then i didnt noticed i'm smile like stupid when read his msg, then my first bro  look at me and  asked me 'budak chess tu ke?'
erk, how did he knw. damn..! i forget to keep my phone on my bag.. 'no. my friend la'
he just give me advice,  i will repeat the same mistake if i proceed it..
erk, i'm very speechless.... I starting like that guy, how can i leave him..
whatever.. i wanna see what hanppd next..


my eyes not  comfortable... k bye

The feeling being dump (emotional version)

hellow peeps!
today i'm feeling so depressed..
my eyes non stop tiring.. plus my new BF.. hmm
just read on title, so you can understand what i mean..

i thought i will have mature relationship with him but, its impossible...
its was disclose how unmatured  i am...
yesterday our first date, and today we are break up...
its amazing!!
then, he sent me msg like i'm the one who are wrong.. come on..
our love story just like a cup of coffee.. hot for a while, then its cold..
when i think back, i'm the one who are so stupid..
believe a guy like that.. maybe he just want trap me on his game,,, i feel like, i'm the real loser right now... trusting the guy like that...
yaa, i'm deserve for all of this because i born to be stupid ..
pretending like care and love me. haha.. its a big joke of him.. to me its not funny ok!...
 i'm so surprise when saw his updates status because he said to me  he was deactive his account  facebook forever.. and the worst feeling when he is still in relationship with other girl today.. LOL..
he was trick me n fooling me around..damn! thanks alot

My First dating with new person :(

Hai Human!

its been long time i'm not update this blog.. hmm

i'm so busy ..

so i have no idea to update anything.. 

i just wanna tell u , i meet one guy today..

its was my first date with him today.. but, i'm not comfortable for my dating with him..

the reason why?

1. my hijab make problem in this morning.. we almost leave by bus because my hijab.. so  we are chasing the bus in the morning... so sucks 

2. my friends suddenly want to follow me to buy her boyfriend's gift.. i forgive her  for this.. hihi

3. erk, the worst feeling is , when i noticed my dress have bad smell. damn! i use my mom perfume that her left on my pencil case before,,, i thought its will solve my probelm but, my probelm more worst.. damn! i feel so dizzy for that smell.. yucks...In My Mind i wanna back home..home, hostel, take a shower!. huhu

4. i feel i'm the most ugly girl for today.. so sucks! 

5. he is bring his friend too.. hmmm.. 

oo ya,, its suppose my chess training, but its change to dating -,-''.. 2 in 1. LOL..

so sleepy and cold .. k bye

The Darkness come

recently, i was thinking about my self  in 2009 and 2010..

what happened to me in that years?

so many question in my mind..

i was wasted my time for the 2 years..

i was in love with someone..The person i'm not suppose to know..

so when i sitting . i force my self to flashback about that years..  its my best friend in my mind.. did she betray me? 

its my matriculation college and UiTM time..

i have friends. i have my love boyfriend.. But, when December came, i got expel from my university.. where are you friends? i face it alone.. my Boyfriend leave me... my Family angry on me.. I through it alone..

i was died...

and now, i'm the new person. But, i cant delete the memory in my brain.. i hope i can forget all of them..

because i want to save new memory with new environment 

hahhaha.. what the freaky moment.. like XXIT!!!


Love  is like a game
play it as well
enjoy it
when you are lost you are hurt
when you are wins, party time

this song situation like me. :(

hmmmm, i like that boy situation my. december  is so sucks