My First entry -emotional version-

Today i'm searching  for my diary.. again my diary is lost!.. hmmm. totally fade up with diary.. where are u diary??!!!..  whole day look for diary just want to write my feeling right now.. 

WHATEVER!  so i decide to write on this blog.. ok.. this blog is new.. and this is my first entry.. 

call me Princess forever alone.. ok? 

because in real life i like laugh alot with friends, joking around, etc.. 24 hours laugh.. teasing people. .. 

seriously i dont know to whom i want share this.. well, i'm forever alone... :(.. since sayur bayam not at home so i feel like forever alone..

recently there are so many things happened to me that make me feeling very down.. :(..

i have been hacked by hacker.. so i'm stop for a while to do business online..

this hacker is programmer nazaryman.. ..

if u want to know abt him just search on google..

and he was make me feeling very down until i feel very hard to stand up! !@#$%^&*().. 

I will emotional when think abt this.. because my blogshop look like rubbish.. even me as the owner dont like look my blog shop.. i can imagine how other look my blog shop.. 

Sabar sabar sabar.. 

leave it.. 

the other make me feel very sad is about UiTM

Honestly, i feel jealous when my ex-classmate update about their recent event in UiTM shah alam.. i'm suppose with them right now semester 4.. i want to deleted my facebook but i cant.. i want to unfriend all UiTM student but obviously i look like REAL LOSER if i do that.. what i'm supposed to do..? i hate my old story... why god send me to uniKL??. i dint see anything in uniKL..!...  i just have new friend only that.. i hate my self sometimes.. just one mistake i did, God take all mine. until now i cant accept this.. i still dont get the answer why? WHY????? and taken back my scholarship? why all of that? Why UiTM so cruel to me?? my friends' uitm suppose delete me in their life..  But, i'm so thankful to Allah because he was give me a last chance to further accounting course.. 

 Dad, thanks for all of this...

i'm waiting for the answer  why all of this happened to me...!!

the other things make me feeling down, hmm someone i knew from tagged... 

this is first and last my love story on tagged.. 

because since yesterday i'm so upset toward him because he was lied to me..

My tagged Love story..
one day , i feeling so alone.. so i open my tagged.. as usual when i open my tagged so many message from 'forever alone guy' send to me.. and najib is the recent message.. He was asked me interesting question and i answer.. he said i look like arabian girl, well, my mind said ' euuuu, this guy is copy paste this words and send to all girls in tagged'' .. so i said to him' i'm PURE malay',, hihi, even my dad have Arabian blood and mix so many race.. but  i dont want waste my time to answer..
at first i'm not interested at him because he is Arabic people... i'm not racist but i just not interested...
furthermore, when i look his face like his face tell me dont trust him..so bit scary to knw this guy..
since i knw him i got bad dream like kidnapped etc, by him. huhuhuhu
BUT
since he is come to my life i'm not feel alone anymore..
i'm happy because my phone is ringing again.. BUT, when i think back he is arabian, my mind changed again.. relax. i'm not racist ok..
When i free, i stalk her picture on tagged, sometimes i feel he is handsome and sometimes not.. half half.. well, i'm so confusing that time...
Then i forget about him for a while and concentrate to my study..

i ask my friend about opinion.. so i want her give me opinion about this guy..  i show her najib  facebook profile.. she said ' not bad and seem like educated.. hmmm, but arabic, hehe. just, be careful... and dont trust :)'... then i ask ask her, 'if u are me, will u accept him..?' she said, 'hmmm,  he is student, so both of u will understand each other. if me , i would accept him' and teasing me my forever alone status. huuu ... then coincident he is come online that time....so we talk much. like usual he give me sweet word, Remeo style..hehe.. i hope he is not copy paste those words...
 like normal girl, i have feeling toward him.. hmmm :(
then like usual relationship, there are something wrong that make we cant stick together..
he took step to unfriend me in facebook.. well, i'm so speechless with his action... he dont give me time to comfortable with him..
Nevermind, at least i lost someone who pretend to love me. and he lost someone who almost love him....
end story
  

He dont give me time to knw him, and give me more time to trust him.. well, i'm not lost anything just waste bit time chatting with him.. luckily i'm not tell anyone, just my best friend knw about this.. hewhewhew..

he like to say the same thing.. visit to his place. visit to his place. well. to me is very awkward.. 

so i have bad perception abt him.. the conclusion i made from my story is every girl he knw from internet he will bring to his home.. are u agree or not?
guess what they did alone?? faster guess? give me high five! yea!

well... awkward right!..

Whatever, its pass .. i cant change anything either.. 
 what i remember about him , his high is 169 cm, he is 24 years old, and he is study at lim kok weng university.. and he is stay at putrajaya.. seee?? i'm totally good girlfriend of him.. well his birthday 16 may.... I remember all of him!! .

and his full name is najib ba rowis.. , najib ba rowis.. OMG, i remember his name properly.. is him remember my name as well? :(.. my little sister always mention this name when i'm annoying her..  when i made her mad, she will mention this name and threat me to tell my dad.. huhuhu

i miss this moment but its was past and become history of my blog. hmm

this is 2 month ago conversion between me and him.. well, i dont know if he is copy paste this word .. but i'm truly trust on him this time...

well, a month ago i like look this photo.. so i save on my lappy. since i want to delete this picture so just upload here.. .

just in case after a years i forget abt him or asking to my self, 'which guy i was crush when i was sem 1??'

at least i knw i'm  normal because crush with boy.. even not in real 

ohhh please dont say i'm forever alone!

well, when i'm open my facebook , the first thing i will see in my updates fb is troll forever alone.. fine, its teasing me at all. the forever alone is me actually.. hmmm.. 

OMG. i cant sleep.. because i was drink 2 cup of coffee because very thirsty.huhu ..

i try to force my self sleep but i cant.. since 11 pm i'm on my bed until now i cant sleep.. i was turn on MP3 with the slow song still not work.. what i  do is turn on lappy, then turn off, turn on then shutdown. 3 times do the same... at the last i'm look for my diary but my diary is not appear..   my elder brother will kill me tomorrow because i was promise to go work with him... hmmmm.. but until now my eyes not sleepy.. now 5.41am.. hmmm.. i need drug to sleep now!..

jom solat subuh dulu!