Alhamdulillah. My Result are being ok

Today i know my result. well, its being ok.. my result just for my parents.. i got 3.52 cgpa....i'm not happy i got that grade because i can do better if i'm serious in study......  but as long my parents happy then i'm ok..  because i dont have any effort to get that result.. i lied my parents because i used to say i'm studied hard. not enough sleep, not enough eat. day and night only holding  book. i do my best.. my lecturer always say i'm very good student.. i'm the best... when i'm in library or any book store i will ask my friend to snap my picture there to show at facebook that i'm study hard and regret about my past.. LOLz...all is liar..

The true is

lecturer never say i'm very good student.. i just want my parents proud of me. hehe.. in class my face is like poker face.. laugh with my friend

day and night i spend my time in front my lappy... all money my dad give i spend to social with my friends and shopping.. thats all ..chatting with boy, playing game, update my blog, blogwalking,  took picture , etc.. luckily my result not very bad.. huhu.. 

Now, my objective is pretend to be stupid and nerdy girl.. so, i can hide myself...

people might think i was change, but i'm still who  am i, and never changed... 

well, i want to be low profile.. so i knw who will stand by my side all the time and i can found my true friend in the end....

Life is complicated. and its dificult. we need to involve in complex drama, etc. fuck off all of that...

i just want to run away from this city. i want life in the peace place.. i dont like drama.. or pretend.. 

hmmmmmmmm   :(

be patient be patient, be patient

i want go back my dad hometown.. i miss my grandmother.. huhuhu :'(

sucks!

Forever Alone life..

today everything is going suck..

when i look the mirror, damn its pimple is making messy my face.. fuck off mirror

When i look my lappy, Damn! i'm tired of drama in facebook! 

when i look my blog, damn u hacker. go to hell

when i go to down stairs . damn no food,!

When i meet my dad.. hmmmm, he is asked why i wake up late.. and why i looking sad?..

i just silent and said i'm hungry.. then i go to my room..

well, only my dad is understand me but he is man.. not everything i can share with him..

actually i;m so sad.. pimple is come to my face again.. and i'm scary look mirror.. my face is messy with pimle. look so dirty monster.. 

When i meet my mom to say i'm sad, Damn! she is angry to me..  

my mom didnt noticed that i'm growing up...

When she is angry me i feel nothing.. i just feel  like listening music i dont like and turn it off whenevr i want.... 

i feel awkward to share story with her because she only know  how to angry me..

when is give me advice i refuse all because not relevant on me..  

well, she always make short decision about me as long not burden her.. without thinking  my feeling and my life .. she is dont want understand my situation.. she only know angry, angry,. and angry. .. well, when she is angry me for something i just ignore because i always right.. 

well, i'm so jealous with my friends' mom. when i ask them which one you closed most mom or dad.. mostly answer their mom...they are always talking on phone with their mom. and me?? forever alone. hmmm..

 well, in this age i'm still not closed with my mom.. when i meet her at home she will order me to do something  i dont like.. when i try to run away she will angry me like hell...  

and she always misunderstand me..

i'm her daughter . she suppose to understand me even for are while..  how could i do such a bad things.. ?  but she is never think for me.. i hate her... 

i'm never have a  good convince with her.. we always fight because i'm totally cant accept  her thought and opinion.. all is oppose me and i think not relevant at all,,. we are so different.all the time.. 

a long time a go, yea, i'm so innocent....  i love her so much.. but she always misunderstand me.. when she is angry me i will cry alone in my room and sleep with my tears everyday....i dont have anyone to share my feeling that time. i refuse to hang out with my friends because my dad not allow.. .... i need to take care my little sister and brother, i have big responsible as the teenager that time.. i' sacrifice my teenager time and spend all my time at home to take care my little sibling..... i'm never have fun..  and she always angry me. and accuse me did  bad things....  i'm so hurt that time.. so i just can describe my feeling on my drawing..and always bought comic to have fantasy to get self fun.. u know what is self fun? enjoy by yourself reading  stupid comic that give you fantasy dream..... because that time i'm believe prince  will come and save me from there..  because i'm so kind.. LOL. i'm so innocent that time... I always waiting my prince come.. BUT, All fairy tale is bullshit! all is liar.. no reward to the person who are kind.... parents willl angry to u. thats all...

I  dont trust all of that!... its hurted me at all. tolerances is bullshit.  i dont trust it.... 

when i was 15, i started appose my mom.. that time, she is noticed that i'm visible in her life.. that time i was  started   to be strong.. i dont like cry for stupid things. when she is angry i just lock my door, i always back home late, hang out with my friends. starting to know boy at all... yeah, my habit totally changed. when i back home i will fight with my little brother and sister, i dont like their touch my stuff. their lovely sister was died!

i'm not good daughter  because i'm never impressed my mom..  dont want to be my mom.....

i'm totally not understand her and not interested to understand her at all.. .. k bye!

fight with my mom :(

Today i'm bit moody.. ya, just because yesterday night my mom angry me.. hmmm.. like usual if my mom angry, i will do hunger strike, i dont want to eat.. !i just lock my self in my room and listening sad song.. hmmm.... after that ,in  the middle of night i  cant sleep because hungry then i silently go to kitchen and eat.. my dad there that time.. i hope my dad not tell my mom .. huhuuhu  

today  my dream is nonsense again.. my dad change my university..hew hew. Lim kok weng.. i dont know the proper spelling that university.... but this time 'm using  helicopter to go there.. i meet many friends.. my new friends is ask me to join they netball team. well. i join them.. but that time my mind only think about UiTM and still sad about UiTM.. hmmm..Exactly  same story like my first day at uniKL.. i'm still sad with UiTM..(still cant accpt what hapnd)  but this time at lim kok weng..(my dream version).. suddenly i remember i knw someone from this university.. he is my crush on tagged long time ago (just a week ago :D) .. OMG 'dad y u send me here??!!' so i'm wearing like criminal cloth to hide my self so he didnt noticed me, just in case  if i meet him across the road or coincident at any place..etc. well, the awesome story when  my best friend  tell me she like that boy, her finger show najib.. huhuhu....  damn!. and she want me to meet him.. oh gosh.. ! after that a gangster appear and want to kidnap my best friend.. LOL, and he is go to rescue my friend... finally both died because that gangster kill them.... sad ending.. erk, then i wake up.. i take my phone.. its show 12 am.. well, today i wake up early than yesterday.. hahahaha.. :P 

 This is princess alone nonsense story . thanks for reading ^_^ :P

I'm not lesbian ok!

Hmmm, i dont like my brother teasing me .. hmm, i'm normal ok.... he always said i like girl. :(..

maybe ya, i like to view picture of girl, maybe i just want to see how they are wearing cloth, fashion, how they are match color, the latest fashion. so, i can wear proper fashion.. 

well, maybe he is just kidding but i feel bad... :(.. Forever alone ~~~ :(

But, i hope i'm normal because recently i always surfing about, avril, taylor, and mostly is girl.. OMG! no! no! no! no!.. 

listen! the reason why i stalk those girl..

avril i like hows her bring her self, her style, rocking style..  so some of them i'm modified so i can wearing with my hijab and cover my aurat.. thats all

taylor swift i like how he is wear her dress,, the same thing i did is modified to the Muslim fashion.. when i wear dress i will wear with cardigan and jeans. and its perfectly cover my aurat :)..

Hana tajima i like her inspiration to wear hijab.. also heliza helmi and Yuna etc.. 

hmm so i'm not that type of girl. i just dont have BF only that.. its doesnt mean i dont like Boy.. i'm waiting for the guy who are my future husband, not the guy who are have fun all the time and in the end break up.. thats all.. hmmmm.. 

well, to prove i'm normal i will tell you the guy that i adore so much and i hope my future husband or BF like them...

jeng jeng jeng!

tadaaa!

Number 1 is Aaron Aziz.. hero Malaysia.. 

he is tough! 

Number 2 is Awal ashari , also tough guy..

number 3 is fahrin Ahmad.. also tough :)...i like him long time ago..

number 4 Matlufthi !! i like his  video.. I adore him because he make me realize there are no fantasy in this world! thumb up to him! clap clap clap!.. famous vlogger in malaysia.. but thin

ok. this 4 guy from Malaysia.. Hero Malaysia.. haha.

Number 5. maher zain..

Number 6 all american reject band

Number 7  westlife

Number 8 is The wanted. tadaaaa

ok.. so now,  i'm normal. ok!

hmmm, i like the guy who are look tough. i wonder why?. its normal girl like guy tough guy.. not like Korean guy.. i'm not haterk-pop  i just dont like korean guy because they are look like girly.. hmmm.. seriously.. -,-'

The reason why i like guy who are tough, when walking with him i feel safe .. just in case the gangster suddenly appear.. so far i have tough boy who can protect me.. hihi .. 

The girl like a boy who can protect them. this is fact!.. when i walking with slim boy, i feel unsafe because i feel like i need to protect him. LOL. just kidding :P.. sorry thin guy,,,. but the fact, thin guys also  tough..

u know why??

there was are boy when i was civil defense practice for rescue  at UiTM.. the boy is thin..That time we have practice for the competition rescue.. so i'm become the victim because i'm small and not heavy .. huhuhuhu. they are so bad :(... so they engaged me tightly using rope with the stretcher ,, i thought i will die and said qalimah syahadah Because he is the one who volunteer to checking the stretcher...  i'm so fear because he is thin..  if he did some mistake i will lost my life and die. huhuhuhu i request to my trainer to  changed the people, but he was hold the stretcher.. i cant do anything  because i cant move so i just closed my eyes.. and read in my heart some al-quran sentences because i'm so fear... how dare him ! ... i just closed my eyes all the time..  at the end i'm still alive he is smile on me.. he said ' dont look down to the thin guys ' huuuhuhuhu.. i'm speechless that time..

well, even he is thin but he is tough ;)..

sorry, my title is different with content,,

by the way, i'm not lesbian.. ok bye!

today is ? damn!, i dont knw what is today

when  i dont life like this, i will forget what day today.. because i just wake up from sleep.. now 2 pm.. well, after been influenced by najib.. he always wake up late when holiday.. damn!. i need to make some effort to wake up early!!! ooo ya, suddenly i remember my dream.. But obviously cannot be accepted during to oversleep and wake up very late..  but nevermind, because everyday i will have dream..

today i was dream HE IS MURDERER!!!! i mean najib.. but not our prime minister, other najib i knw from tagged. huhuhu...entry! i dont know why he is come to my dream because i'm totally forgot abt him..
my dream story like this.. i come to his room.. then i saw dead body.. OMG.. ! then i want to  go out because he is sleeping that time, when i want to make step to walk away he is take my hand then stop me..(romantic scene)  euuuu!.immediately  i wake up form sleep.. then, my little sister talking to me about her stuff.. and she said i need to wake up.. i'm ignored and continue sleep..  in my mind, luckily its just dream ..
after that i dream again.. this is another version. hahaha.. i dream about baby..
so cute!.. well, the baby can hafaz Al-quran.. the best things the baby is smart and clever.. well, so cute..
she is my causin daughter.. but so clever.. after 5 years she is become popular because can hafaz al-quran.. after that, i want to watch her video on youtube sunddently i wake up from sleep.. well, when i'm wake up i go to wash my face then open my lappy.. damn!  my brother was  block my IP adress from wifi.. he said i'm using so many server and make wifi working slow.. i dont, because i only open 1 youtube and facebook. and google.. only that... BBUT he talk like i do surfing 5 youtube, and downloading so many movie plus open so many website..   He said to me, maybe someone is hacking my server, so he block for are while until all of that is slow down.. .. hacker is very selfish!!!!.. i think he is not programmer nazaryman.. someone else..  i wonder who is 'tthat HACKER' ..,  maybe someone that i know.... everything is going very messy now.. out  my control.also my planning.. damn!
                           
                                thanks for listen my nonsense story today. bye
Time to  read security in computing book!!! good luck princess forever alone -,-'

i can ride motorcyle!

Hello guys!

Today is bit fun!

BUT.. hmmmm behind the fun there are bit sad..

The fun is i know how to Ride motorcycle! yeay!. hahha.. my friend teach me how to ride. so easy. LOL..

now, i can ride by my own self.. ok ok.. I meet my best friends.. well, after i meet i feel happy! yea yea. give high five! .. thay are my best firends when i was in high school.... hahaha.. they are really my best friends.. whoever i am.. they will accpt me.. Even when i'm loser like this they still my friend :).. i know them 6 years ago until now.. we are very closed together  since we are 15 years old. eyka and zaty.. we are so naughty  when we are 15 years. hahaha.

and the tthings make me sad is hmmm.. :(..

i was accident opend my picture when i was in UiTM..

I miss that moment very much.. i'm so innocent  that time,, well, never mind, its past. i cant change anything either... i hope all my memories in UiTM will be erased in my mind ASAP..

the other things i want to share is about my dream this moring.. hahahaha

its very funny ok!

hahahahahahhahhaha..

i was dream that i'm  dating with the guy who was matched for me by eyka. LOL...

u know where? at times square.. LOL.. 

when i wake up i'm think.. lucky its just dream. haha. ok guys! bye

Hijab style..

Hello guys. hmm, before i'm going to bed i want to share about hijab.. 

As the Muslim girl , we need to cover aurat with hijab.. 

To me hijab is very important... because i need to creative myself to stylish  my hijab look everyday during my class in University ..  i'm hijab Lover..  Especially i love Hijab  with leopard design., line desgn .  and polka dot..well, since my mom bought 4 hijab different design from turkey  so i have extra collection of leopard Hijab.. hihi.. .

I dont want to talk much but i want to introduce to alls hijab lover and readers my hijab inspiration.. jeng jeng jeng <3...!

number 1.. is Heliza helmi!. 

i'm so adore hows she wear her Hijab. Perfect!

truly muslim. and she is sporting and bit funny..

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

Heliza helmi and hijab

The second one is Diana Amir..

Before this she is not wear hijab. and gladly now she is wearing hijab because she want become good muslim... Thumb up to her <3

The third one is yatt Hamzah.. !.. she also like diana Amir ^_^

yatt Hamzah and hijab

yatt Hamzah and hijab

yatt Hamzah and hijab

the forth one is hana tajima...!!

frankly. until now i'm still search this shawl... T_T.

i want this shawl. I WANT!!!! 

ok. this 4 girl is my inspiration for my hijab  look like.. hmmm

But, I always wearing hijab so simple..by  my own syle..  only one minute... ;).. especially if i'm go to class because in the morning i will rushing.. ;). so i dont have time to open my lappy and look which style i must follow.. well, its not relevant at all 

guess. who is she?

well, She is Princess forever alone.. hai hai hai!  nice to meet  u! :P

good night!

ooo ya. wait..hmmm

for the next entry i will show you the tutorial of hijab.. yeah! 

tq for reading ^_^

  

   

Why You are Forever alone

well today, i'm argue with my sister about life..

she said i'm choosy !! well, of course i need to choose someone who i think i can love with.. not someone  who i dont have 'that feeling' you know what mean by 'that feeling'??

she want me to accept my classmate when i was in high school.. but i  totally cannot love him..

why?? because i dont have any feeling toward him... full stop.. !

the fact of people. if u are couple with someone who you are not love , u will point his mistake all the time.. agree or not??

i'm totally agreeee!!!

I hope after this my friends not try to match me with  their friend.. its so annoying when the guy think i will like him as well and post on my facebook wall to purpose me.. hmmm, i need to be cruel sometimes because i dont want to hurt anyone.. . seee? i'm so good girl.. i dont like fool people or using them even if i knw he is love me.. i will honest to that guys that i cant love them.. 

 yea, i'm single but not available..  Because i'm waiting for my truly adam.. not for the man that not desrve for me..  when i was in uitm before. my friend match me with the guy who are like to show up!

hmm, well he is really annoying me.. have a car, own company, etc.. BUT because he lie about his tall i leave him.. he said he is 175. so i'm never noticed abt his tall because when we are meet we are sitting in  his car.. but when we are dated i'm using heels. then i look he is same high with me... hmmmm  well to me tall quite important.. i just want someone atleast 11 cmm tall than me because sometimes i'm wearing heels 10 cm.... FOREVER ALONE words :(

i'm prefer  to be Forever Alone than choose someone  who i feel not interesting in my eyes.. 

hmmmm. that is fact of me.. that why i'm forever alone.....

That why i'm never involve in serious relationship until now.. hmmmm..

Never mind. God is busy writing my love story..  guys! waiting for my love story oke!!!

k.bye

My First entry -emotional version-

Today i'm searching  for my diary.. again my diary is lost!.. hmmm. totally fade up with diary.. where are u diary??!!!..  whole day look for diary just want to write my feeling right now.. 

WHATEVER!  so i decide to write on this blog.. ok.. this blog is new.. and this is my first entry.. 

call me Princess forever alone.. ok? 

because in real life i like laugh alot with friends, joking around, etc.. 24 hours laugh.. teasing people. .. 

seriously i dont know to whom i want share this.. well, i'm forever alone... :(.. since sayur bayam not at home so i feel like forever alone..

recently there are so many things happened to me that make me feeling very down.. :(..

i have been hacked by hacker.. so i'm stop for a while to do business online..

this hacker is programmer nazaryman.. ..

if u want to know abt him just search on google..

and he was make me feeling very down until i feel very hard to stand up! !@#$%^&*().. 

I will emotional when think abt this.. because my blogshop look like rubbish.. even me as the owner dont like look my blog shop.. i can imagine how other look my blog shop.. 

Sabar sabar sabar.. 

leave it.. 

the other make me feel very sad is about UiTM

Honestly, i feel jealous when my ex-classmate update about their recent event in UiTM shah alam.. i'm suppose with them right now semester 4.. i want to deleted my facebook but i cant.. i want to unfriend all UiTM student but obviously i look like REAL LOSER if i do that.. what i'm supposed to do..? i hate my old story... why god send me to uniKL??. i dint see anything in uniKL..!...  i just have new friend only that.. i hate my self sometimes.. just one mistake i did, God take all mine. until now i cant accept this.. i still dont get the answer why? WHY????? and taken back my scholarship? why all of that? Why UiTM so cruel to me?? my friends' uitm suppose delete me in their life..  But, i'm so thankful to Allah because he was give me a last chance to further accounting course.. 

 Dad, thanks for all of this...

i'm waiting for the answer  why all of this happened to me...!!

the other things make me feeling down, hmm someone i knew from tagged... 

this is first and last my love story on tagged.. 

because since yesterday i'm so upset toward him because he was lied to me..

My tagged Love story..
one day , i feeling so alone.. so i open my tagged.. as usual when i open my tagged so many message from 'forever alone guy' send to me.. and najib is the recent message.. He was asked me interesting question and i answer.. he said i look like arabian girl, well, my mind said ' euuuu, this guy is copy paste this words and send to all girls in tagged'' .. so i said to him' i'm PURE malay',, hihi, even my dad have Arabian blood and mix so many race.. but  i dont want waste my time to answer..
at first i'm not interested at him because he is Arabic people... i'm not racist but i just not interested...
furthermore, when i look his face like his face tell me dont trust him..so bit scary to knw this guy..
since i knw him i got bad dream like kidnapped etc, by him. huhuhuhu
BUT
since he is come to my life i'm not feel alone anymore..
i'm happy because my phone is ringing again.. BUT, when i think back he is arabian, my mind changed again.. relax. i'm not racist ok..
When i free, i stalk her picture on tagged, sometimes i feel he is handsome and sometimes not.. half half.. well, i'm so confusing that time...
Then i forget about him for a while and concentrate to my study..

i ask my friend about opinion.. so i want her give me opinion about this guy..  i show her najib  facebook profile.. she said ' not bad and seem like educated.. hmmm, but arabic, hehe. just, be careful... and dont trust :)'... then i ask ask her, 'if u are me, will u accept him..?' she said, 'hmmm,  he is student, so both of u will understand each other. if me , i would accept him' and teasing me my forever alone status. huuu ... then coincident he is come online that time....so we talk much. like usual he give me sweet word, Remeo style..hehe.. i hope he is not copy paste those words...
 like normal girl, i have feeling toward him.. hmmm :(
then like usual relationship, there are something wrong that make we cant stick together..
he took step to unfriend me in facebook.. well, i'm so speechless with his action... he dont give me time to comfortable with him..
Nevermind, at least i lost someone who pretend to love me. and he lost someone who almost love him....
end story
  

He dont give me time to knw him, and give me more time to trust him.. well, i'm not lost anything just waste bit time chatting with him.. luckily i'm not tell anyone, just my best friend knw about this.. hewhewhew..

he like to say the same thing.. visit to his place. visit to his place. well. to me is very awkward.. 

so i have bad perception abt him.. the conclusion i made from my story is every girl he knw from internet he will bring to his home.. are u agree or not?
guess what they did alone?? faster guess? give me high five! yea!

well... awkward right!..

Whatever, its pass .. i cant change anything either.. 
 what i remember about him , his high is 169 cm, he is 24 years old, and he is study at lim kok weng university.. and he is stay at putrajaya.. seee?? i'm totally good girlfriend of him.. well his birthday 16 may.... I remember all of him!! .

and his full name is najib ba rowis.. , najib ba rowis.. OMG, i remember his name properly.. is him remember my name as well? :(.. my little sister always mention this name when i'm annoying her..  when i made her mad, she will mention this name and threat me to tell my dad.. huhuhu

i miss this moment but its was past and become history of my blog. hmm

this is 2 month ago conversion between me and him.. well, i dont know if he is copy paste this word .. but i'm truly trust on him this time...

well, a month ago i like look this photo.. so i save on my lappy. since i want to delete this picture so just upload here.. .

just in case after a years i forget abt him or asking to my self, 'which guy i was crush when i was sem 1??'

at least i knw i'm  normal because crush with boy.. even not in real 

ohhh please dont say i'm forever alone!

well, when i'm open my facebook , the first thing i will see in my updates fb is troll forever alone.. fine, its teasing me at all. the forever alone is me actually.. hmmm.. 

OMG. i cant sleep.. because i was drink 2 cup of coffee because very thirsty.huhu ..

i try to force my self sleep but i cant.. since 11 pm i'm on my bed until now i cant sleep.. i was turn on MP3 with the slow song still not work.. what i  do is turn on lappy, then turn off, turn on then shutdown. 3 times do the same... at the last i'm look for my diary but my diary is not appear..   my elder brother will kill me tomorrow because i was promise to go work with him... hmmmm.. but until now my eyes not sleepy.. now 5.41am.. hmmm.. i need drug to sleep now!..

jom solat subuh dulu!